In a relationship with Chiki

Last week, went back Hometown for long holiday. And as usual, Chiki my mixed-persian white kitty was never leave behind.

She has been my closest companion for about 5 months now. Whenever I reach home, I can see her waiting patiently at the glass door and at night, she sleeps on my bed. When I drive, she will lay on my lap or sit on my shoulder to be my head-rest. She follows me wherever I go - kitchen, room, toilet. Chiki is faithful and sweet. I know, ‘I’m in relationship with my cat’. Hehe.

Chiki was given by a friend of mine when I feel empty living alone after moving to another town. Since small, I always have a cat at home. So without them, my life feels incomplete.

On that one day, I went out to meet some friends. When I get home at night, my nephew said: “Chiki is gone”. I was stunned. Chiki never go far outside and I felt upset that nobody observed when she’s out. It was near to 11pm and I walked around the neighborhood area to look for Chiki. I called out her name but no trace, no sound of her bell. I waited outside until 1am and kept searching but she didn’t come back. Probably someone already had her.

I couldn’t sleep. I went out again at 3am but Chiki still not there. I can’t believe that she’s really gone and that feeling of losing something special in life occurred back to me and totally broke my heart. I cried to sleep and accidentally woke up at 730am. I heard scratching sound at the door and when I opened, Chiki was there, meowing. It’s a miracle!

I had many experience of losing something/someone that I love and care so much. Maybe I’m such a strong person that’s why I always been tested. Well, am I?

I learned that everything we have is not belongs to us, but Allah. So when it’s taken back from us, be REDHA.

I’m hoping that Chiki could live with me in a long period of time. Amin~

What is significant?

When one of my colleague resigned, we all miss her home-cook food that she always shared. When the girl from other department quit, I didn't smell smoke in the toilet anymore. I didn't have companion when sleeping on the couch, after my cat died.

At least there's one most significant thing that we would miss about someone when they left. Someone who laughs so loud, someone who smells very bad, someone who likes to fart around, someone who always wear short skirt. People would remember us with their own recognition.

I wonder, what would you remember me as when I leave your life, leave this place and leave this world?

Hamekkau! 30 things about myself

Malam ni mata tak berapa bole lelap. Macam banyak je perkara yang berlegar dalam kepala. Da baring tapi tetap terkebil-kebil. Sampai terfikir pasal '20 things about myself' yang ramai orang dok post skang ni. Dulu penah tulis kat blog, tapi ni nak buat lagi skali la. Disebabkan banyak sangat fikir agaknya, bukan je 20 tapi terbagi sampai 30 pulak. Eheh!

 1. Born 245am in KL at home, not hospital.

 2. My father passed away when I was 3 days old.

 3. I'm the youngest cos my mom never married again.

 4. I 'think' I'm a smart person.

 5. Bukan jenis budak baik dari azali. Ingat lagi masa tadika suka buli seorang budak lelaki, penah ketuk kepala dia dengan cawan dan rosakkan ciptaan dia masa cikgu bagi main plastesin. Ala yang tanah liat tu la.

 6. Cikgu tak bape suka sebab time tu comot sangat kot. Pastu plak banyak buat hal. Memang la cikgu tak sayang.

 7. Lebih suka geng dengan budak lelaki sebab budak pempuan suka komplen, suka ngumpat dan asek kontrol cun.

 8. But now, I realized that only girlfriends stay forever.

 9. Kasut saiz 5.

 10. Paling berat yang penah timbang adalah 56kg iaitu dirasakan hampir obesiti.

 11. Suka makan ayam goreng.

 12. Suka sayur hijau.

 13. Kuat makan tapi tak makan banyak benda. Antaranya tak makan durian, terung, labu, lobak (tapi air bole), kambing, kicap, tempe, belacan, rebung, cincau, cendol, petai, jering, lembu ngan ikan pon tak bape makan sangat.

 14. I have a sensitive stomach and always have problem with it.

 15. Susun duit dalam purse ikut amaun kecik depan, besar belakang. Pastu mesti kepala agong belah kanan.

 16. Makan suka yang pedas. Ada cili padi lagi best.

 17. I always feel fat but never diet.

 18. Tak suka carik gaduh dengan sesapa dan tak suka memaki. I could control myself from saying bad words to anyone.

 19. But I easily get annoyed with anybody.

 20. I'm bad in hiding my true feelings.

 21. I love cat soo much. And can't really live without one.

 22. Selalu akan tanam bila kucing mati dan akan tetap nangis bila teringat arwah.

 23. Sbenanya tak bole blah dengan orang yang suka cakap Melayu campur English dalam satu ayat. Like, u know when aku pegi to the mall, aku suka to buy kuih donut and then lepak there until malam. Don't overdo it please!

 24. Teringin nak pegi pulau lagi.

 25. Dah lebih 5 tahun tak mandi air terjun.

 26. Antara yang paling lambat amek lesen kereta dikalangan kawan rapat.

 27. Tapi siap amek lesen motor sekali.

 28. I love my mom but I don't really know how to show it to her. I'm a bad daughter.

 29. I don't really able to love anyone.

 30. I don't really achieve anything big in my life. But try not to bother much about it.

 31. Masih belajar untuk sentiasa bersyukur.

 *eh terlebey pulak :P